Push

Over the last few months I have really been getting back into drawing a lot. I feel like all those questions I have had for so many years about who I am and what I was made to do are not nearly so pressing or significant now. I don't think about all that as much. I feel comfortable in my own skin for the first time in a decade or so. Maybe being that is a signal that I am really doing what I was made for, that I have figured out how to live my life "right". Not that there is one right way and I have stumbled across the secret and the rest of you are on your own... no, I think it is an individual process and that there may come a season of discontent and frustration again in the future. What I guess I know now is that God uses those times to PUSH is forward in the direction he wants us to go. He wants it to be voluntary, he wants us to choose to follow, but he is not above a nice firm shove or a serious case of the discontents. The thing is, I love drawing, but that wasn't what I was made for, was it? I was made for the glory of God, and as long as I can glorify him in art, then I guess that is what I will do... until the next time I feel him push me in another direction.